So the year is quickly coming to an END! I can’t believe 2017 is practically over. This time of year always gets me thinking about what lies ahead for me and things I want to accomplish in the new year. It’s also a time for REFLECTION!
I was in the process of choosing my one little word for 2018 which made me reflect on this past year. I had one for 2017, quickly changed my mind on the idea but as the year went on realized that my word was my main focus for the year. My word was SIMPLE and I applied it to my life in every aspect. It worked great! I simplified my life in so many ways and I’m proud of the change that I’ve had in my life because of that one word.
I also realized this year that I hit some hard times, mentally. I don’t think I have fully bounced back from it because I’m actually insecure with who I am. In 2015, I was struggling in every aspect of my life, what was happiness? I didn’t know. In 2016, I made it a priority to do things that I wanted to do that would make me happy. I accomplished so many little goals that I had been wanting to do for YEARS! I finally did it all and I was truly HAPPY. It was also the year that I really embraced God. I have it written down in my EC Life Planner the day I prayed for the first time in YEARS. It was such a rewarding time in my life to find happiness with God, within myself and just BEING MYSELF.
So back to 2017, I wanted to be liked. I felt (and still do) really insecure that people didn’t like me. Which was weird because I’ve always been unapologetically myself, love it or leave it I didn’t care. Oh but I cared A LOT in 2017. It’s the main reason why this blog has very few posts because I have felt so insecure about the things I wanted to blog about. I felt like I had to be a blogger or an influencer. The ones that have the perfect pictures, with the the perfect captions, and the instagram theme with paid promotions. Plus I was on a design team with NINETEEN ridiculously talented people. Then theres the whole planner community that is creative af, which brought my self doubt to an all time high.
I didn’t pursue certain things because I was genuinely afraid that people would reject me. Maybe they would, maybe people don’t like me but even if that is the case I don’t want to be afraid. I want to do the things that make me happy without feeling insecure. I want to be sure of myself as a person.
Which brings me to my One Little Word for 2018:
S E L F
I want to take this next year to focus on myself as a person. Self concept like self image, self esteem, self worth, my ideal self. I thought I went through this “self discovery” last year but I was really pursuing was happiness. I want to be confident with who I am because I KNOW WHO I AM not who I think other people want me to be.
If you are participating in the One Little Word this year I would love to know the word you chose and why you chose it! If you don’t know what it is you can read about HERE! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Darling!
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