Be Fearless in the Pursuit of What Sets Your Soul On Fire

I have so many thoughts going on in my head as I write this. I feel like everything is aligning up in my life. I can’t say enough how amazing last year was for me and how fulfilling it is to achieve goals. This year I am standing in fear.
One of the things I have been fearful of is pursuing something that I’ve wanted to do since I was fifteen. I am a creative. I love to create. It brings me happiness. I’ve had the wonderful opportunity to share my creativity in the planner community but recently I have been wanting to do more. I have a love for photography since I was young, my Daddy always had a camera in his hands. I also love graphic design. Ask what I wanted to be my freshman year of high school I would say a graphic designer.
I didn’t pursue it because I didn’t think someone would actually pay me to create. Same thing with photography, who would pay someone to take photos? It seemed so stupid to me. I ended up pursuing another passion which is sports medicine. It felt like a better fit because it’s in the medial field how can you go wrong with that?
I know it’s possible to pursue sports medicine. If I work hard enough I can do it. I’m confident I can but it’s at the sacrifice of my child. I get it, single moms are supposed to “hustle” and make shit happen for their kids. I know I can make a good life for him without having a fancy degree. What means more to me is spending this time with him. I lost both of my parents by the time I was twenty. I understand how precious time is. I don’t want the years to go by and my child not have me around. I’m his only parent and he needs ME. 
In 2015, he was showing signs of autism and his future was of priority so I quit mine. I nearly fell into a depression by the time 2016 came around so I quit my life! I quit my job (which had become my life) and God opened doors for me. He brought me here today. I now work for a school district, which means I get the same time off as my son does. I’m also grateful for the fact that my work is down the street from one of the best community colleges AND the best part is that they offer graphic design courses.
I’m excited to say that I finally applied to go back to college and I will pursue graphic design! It feels so crazy to me that I took this step. Going back to school is terrifying. I love school but being away for two years and attending a whole new school makes me nervous! While I will never fully give up on sports medicine, I’m so happy to pursue something else that makes me happy. God knows what he’s doing. He’s paved this path for me and I can’t wait to see where he takes me.

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